Spinning Wheels

Feeling like you got too much on your plate?
Overwhelmed, pulled in different directions and everything and everyone seems to need a piece of you?
We all feel like that from time to time and most of the time we just push through till we get to calmer waters...but what if this seems like it's been going on for a long time with no relief in sight.
Burn out can be the result, straining our relationships, making hasty decisions and simply getting tired and sick.
If your plate feels like it is overloaded, it's time to take stock. I believe taking stock of ourselves everyday is important. I haven't mastered mediation yet but I can appreciate how a few minutes set aside in your day(maybe at the beginning or before you go to sleep) could go along ways to calm the waters no matter of the size of challenges placed before you. I think we all could benefit from thoughtful reflection to really see clearly what are the important tasks in our lives, how to prioritize and how to drop excess baggage from our plates that really hold us back from accomplishing the things that really matter the most.

Thoughts that are going through my head as I get too caught up in the daily "to do" lists that seem to prevent me from breaking free of the"spinning my wheels" feeling...

Field Trip

Vacation time for a week.
Off to Drumheller for our annual Dinosaur visit. My son has not outgrown Dinosaurs and insists we visit the museum as a vacation spot. His passion for dinosaurs and the science of paleontology lights him up. It really becomes a field trip for his parents and he is the guide!
I don't mind really, the museum is full of interesting things and I seem to always find something new to learn, not to mention the kids. Its amazing how kids are so fascinated and excited by something that doesn't exist anymore. The last time I was that excited by something that didn't exist anymore ...was the last payment on my vehicle!

Anyways, glad to have the time away from work,  and ending off the vacation week with Bootcamp!

Day 16 - Frustration Disappointment and Defeat

3 Kms this morning...came home beaten.
I made the decision to withdraw from the Death Race.

This is going to hang in the back of my mind now....

My hamstring pain has not subsided. I'm good for about 2km then it becomes unbearable. I walk for half a kilometer then I can go a little bit more. Massage, Active release, ice, stretching have all been good but it's going to take time...the race is in three weeks.

If it was just me, no problem, I would drag my dying body across the line but there are cut off times to meet and I would feel really crappy if I disqualified the team.

It leaves me wondering why? Why now? Trying to figure out what I did or didn't do.

I didn't injure myself, it just seemed to come on gradually. The Physio guy said sometimes repetitive training will expose injuries, scarred muscles or problem areas that we were not aware of. If that's true then I guess I can look at it as a good thing. My kicks on the left side have always been lacking and maybe this is why, so if I can fix the hamstring/abductor problem, I would be excited about improving those kicks.

I have to say the running has done wonders for my stamina, my sparring,rolling and overall cardio have improved noticeably. I have also enjoyed the alone time running has brought. I don't want to stop.

So , apart from feeling frustrated, having great anxiety over standing down or sucking it up ..not to mention I  have to swallow my pride and publicly announce my failing with embarrassment, the toughest part right now is to overcome the feeling of "doing nothing".  The feeling of defeat is powerful. It makes me want to stop running, actually stop training of any sort and just lay on the couch and feel sorry for myself.

I know that's how I feel today,

I'm hopeful later this week I will get my old mojo back and figure out how to fix this....till then...


Big Thanks to Sifu Darcy Regier for taking my spot!...I plan on being the best water boy/cheerleader ever for you guys!

Day 15

5.5 km after fitness class

Day 14

Short 5 km run thru Chickakoo. Watched the Great White North triathlon athletes run through our neighborhood, some pretty amazing looking people!

Day 13

7.5 km run  River Valley at lunch. 5minutes on foam roller. Funny looks from office coworkers as I sit on cold- pak!...but it feels good!

Day 12.5

Ran on treadmill for an hour. Hamstring isn't 100% yet so opted for something that wouldn't be as taxing on it. Treadmills don't count though!